Monday, 24 September 2007
i wonder.. watever happens to me maybe retribution
this pain right now...is so hard to bear.
wen u lost something, you will never know when you gonna retrieve it.
Something so precious to me among all other things tat ive treasured but yet it lost the moment i turn my back against it.
few tear drops make it all better.
the ppl make my life there so much better too.
i tink without them, i would more lost and lost-er.
thanks everyone. Ajkh. u guys have been a great support.
Thanks to Shahidah lots and lots. without her, i think i would be sleeping over at Hotel 81. :'( lol
i should have known better. Seriously...it's been like 2-3 since ive been there. During this peak period, there are bound to have "itchy-hands". Damn you ppl! But i cant totally blame them. I could be the reason of it. I shd have kept it somewhere safer. Argggh!! How i wish i could turn back time. I wish to turn the time back. I wanna go to a time machine.
Now im feeling so much better. After telling Ibu about it, im so much livelier. Tho it may be a pain for Ibu but i promise this will be the last. Hopefully, Abang will lessen Ibu burden ^^ kk. Since he is posted to police Academy, hopefully he will be a big big help and $$$$. hehex
when this happen, i seriously feel my live is going down the drain. I see myself in darkness with no one to hold or lean on. I start blaming myself. After knowing that my DAE application is still under consideration, i swear i wanna give up on life. Oh well... who knows...maybe next year will be all sunshine and happy.
I realise that im not doing something that would make both my parents proud of. I seriously wanna change for the better. But everytime when i tried, something keeps pulling me back. I need some slack seriously. I just want to cry out loud and not few drops of tears. I hope after a good cry, i would feel so much better and wont blame myself for things that doesnt go my way.
unlocked @ 9/24/2007
